Sunday, July 30, 2006

30 July 2006

Everything in this world I fight for,
is because of you.
& now you're gone,
the fighter that doesnt know it strength.
the world had lost another world classer fighter.
I cried I cried & still I cried,
am I the Jeremy,
people know?
I am always seen cheerful,
but deep in me am I cheerful?
I dont know myself,
cause I nvr understand myself.
I once say this world is beautiful,
not because it has many things to be seen;
but the smile I always see in you.
I cant be strong,
I am not strong in the 1st place.
I am always hiding pain,
the endless pain in me.
let it be family, love, work
I need the warmth,
yet none can provide me.
Seen to be from a family of wellness,
yet I dont feel it.
None of my love ones understood me.
I grew with a childhood full of pain,
the unbearable stress & pressure
to perform
&
made me a product of show.
I learn to image myself infront of every1,
this is Jeremy
I can be perfect in one's eyes
but in my own eyes I am not myself.
Double from my characters
I learn to hide true self
&
show the perfectness the other self.
Lord, I pray
Buddhas, I pray
will my life jus be seen as 1
& not 2?
I am tired I am tired I am tired,
laid to rest if you can?
I am tired

Posted by JeReMy at 7/30/2006 10:33:00 AM