Sunday, July 30, 2006
30 July 2006
Everything in this world I fight for,
is because of you.
& now you're gone,
the fighter that doesnt know it strength.
the world had lost another world classer fighter.
I cried I cried & still I cried,
am I the Jeremy,
people know?
I am always seen cheerful,
but deep in me am I cheerful?
I dont know myself,
cause I nvr understand myself.
I once say this world is beautiful,
not because it has many things to be seen;
but the smile I always see in you.
I cant be strong,
I am not strong in the 1st place.
I am always hiding pain,
the endless pain in me.
let it be family, love, work
I need the warmth,
yet none can provide me.
Seen to be from a family of wellness,
yet I dont feel it.
None of my love ones understood me.
I grew with a childhood full of pain,
the unbearable stress & pressure
to perform
&
made me a product of show.
I learn to image myself infront of every1,
this is Jeremy
I can be perfect in one's eyes
but in my own eyes I am not myself.
Double from my characters
I learn to hide true self
&
show the perfectness the other self.
Lord, I pray
Buddhas, I pray
will my life jus be seen as 1
& not 2?
I am tired I am tired I am tired,
laid to rest if you can?
I am tired
Posted by JeReMy at 7/30/2006 10:33:00 AM
Thursday, July 27, 2006
27 July 2006
when 29 July 2006 comes this saturday, it may be a day that smiles be gone from me forever!I start to believe that being a gd man doesnt pay to be gd...like my friend who always prefer being a bad person. Y because bad people live longger than good people. The best thing in life is about achieving your dreams...but in me, I thought that having a good love life with your dear/dar is the best thing in life. Enjoying the life of togetherness & warmth. Isnt it great?
I know I can nvr find this day because I start to believe that gers are just liars too! They say guys are jerks in this world but GIRLS do you all ever THINK how we guys feel? There are many types of people in this world...but y do girls always think guys are JERKS? I believe that I am not 1 of those who goes around breaking girls' heart... I am always trying my best to give the best of myself to my gf but she just dont see it?
LOVE SUXS LOVE SUXS ...really suxs! I HATE girls soon...& I will nvr trust 1 anymore soon....
Posted by JeReMy at 7/27/2006 11:32:00 PM
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
26 July 2006
Took 1hr+ off time from work today to come home & rest due to the coughs I HAVE! I only cough when I am in office...though once awhile back home or on the train...the coughs make me feel dizzy & it seems to turn my maigrains up on my head! Really terrible headaches in office...tried to take some rest in office but it doesnt seems to work...so come home & rest!Anyway feeling better nw after some gd napping! I wonder will it be the same @ office tml!
Receive a letter of service frm CMPB. I am to report for my enlistment on coming 7 Oct 2006, Saturday at 8am. I am going to BMT school 1...wonder how the welfare at there gd anot?
I am looking forward to my enlistment but whats on my mind nw is abt...will SHE turned up to send me off for enlistment or even come to visit me on the 1st few weeks of training??? I got 5 tickets for visit entry! Haiz doubt she will turned up too...so just forget about asking her...same answer as usual from her..
I wonder y I can be perfect in the things I do & can tell people how to deal with relationship but when it happens on me, I cant handle it at all!!! I envy couples on the streets that spend their time togther holding hands, going out, eating together....I yearn for all of these activities with her but it seems like no chance... why other boys get to enjoy yet I dont really enjoy? I am not complaining but I jus wished to spend more time with you whenever possible. I am trying to be the best & perfect bf but I know I cant do it...I am demanding & bad tempered at times..I apologise but I really dont know hw to face you at times...mayb my love for was wrong? I am always wrong...trying to be perfect in everything...anyway love is always like this for me...when you dont have a relationship, you want it badly but when you have it, we hope there is no problems but always sweetness...
Tell me what to do my friends....I am feeling ........dotz dotz dotz
Posted by JeReMy at 7/26/2006 08:30:00 PM
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
25 July 06
Hmm today is Tuesday... another 3more days to weekend again!Been coughing ever since I enter office on Monday...[[SHIT]] !!!
OMG, when will this coughing stop? It is the itch at the throat that wants me to cough more...I am not coughing without flams...eeks lohz....PLEASE stop all these coughs...Y?
Firstly in office, I'm like a SPEAKER of SOUNDS - CoUghS *aHeM ahEm*
Secondly, my colleagues LIKE so AFRAID OF GETTING MY VIRUS! ---> Mr C__N!~! lolx
Thirdly, I cant work properly...the coughs gave me headaches & throat pain!
blah blah blah...I cant enjoy my life for nw... ArHgzZzzZ!
AnywAy Jus hope it recovers fast for me...I am STRONG right my friends?
time flies pretty fast today...another day passed! I am drawing nearer to my NS enlistment day... HmMm cant wait to CHIONgz! HaHaz...
TodaY is the Start of 7th month Hungry Ghost Festival...2 all my friends out there...watch out for spooky stuffs...dont return home late K? be home early before the night howls of loneliness & miseries....this year got 2 cycles of the 7mth...longer holiday period for all these netherworld friends...MaY they ResT in PeaCe...
kkZ, time to slp le...YawNz... Gd NigHT!
Posted by JeReMy at 7/25/2006 10:20:00 PM
Monday, July 24, 2006
Back For Now
Yahooooogaaaaa...I am back guys...with a new blog look...
Look rather simple but it is my style...people who knows me well should know that I like to be simple in design & etc...
I hope you guys stay tunned to my blog everyday...Thank You for your support!!!!
Posted by JeReMy at 7/24/2006 09:50:00 PM
Look at this car below SBU 4471 H ...He rammed into my car's back....look how serious of this car damage...
Was driving alone, to pick up my mum at hair saloon in Bukit Batok...Driving from my hse to get onto PIE(changi) from Jurong Corporation Slip Road. At that point of travel, there was a female motorcylist whose bike breakdown in the middle of the slip road. 2 cars infront of me stop hence I follow the traffic to a complete stop. But the car at the back jus rammed into my car, most likely to be tailgating...It was a huge impact which really damage my car's back. It was raining at that time...SWAY arhz...impact so hard that CDs & etc in my car flew abt. I cant find my hp also lohz..dont know fly until where...
Called for help to my dad which came down to scene to help settle issue...the accident involve 1 lorry, 4cars including mine... Haiz now car in workshop...no car to drive...Dare not drive the rental car...anyway got PHOBIA in me nw...not as daring like last time...even lose of confidence!!!
Crash Scene 2
Posted by JeReMy at 7/24/2006 09:31:00 PM
Crash Scene 1 
