Friday, January 06, 2006

6 January 2006

Today is the 6th day into 2006 & I found myself dead in this world...Y is there so much pain? Life is a learning journey, I agreed but y must it be pain to learn? Y cant life jus be simple? No pain, stress jus simply simple...Love suxs in many ways but still I want to fall in love? If I wish something nw...it would be...I nvr want to be in this world...I dont want to live with misery...

All I hope was a simple life with some1 I really loved to be...All I hope was her love, her care, her warmth! But all I get was pain...4yrs ago....my love left me for her ex! The worst part was she reunit with him & after 2days then wrote an email to break off with me...Loving her was all on my mind...I gave her freedom..everything she ask for...but what do I get back? yes this could be a lesson to be learn but isnt the lesson too high price to learn? What am I treated as?

I felt love wasnt the type for me...mayb my life was meant for love... I nvr want to fall for another ger cos it hurt everytime...I am back to the old Jeremy...I wan to be a quiet boy in his own world...the world is bright but I choose to hide in my own world...I nvr want to step out to see daylight cos I am afraid nw...let it be....nothing values in me nw. What I always wanted will nvr come anymore...I just gave up..I live a life jus to pass its day...call me Dead-Me! No one will revive me anymore....