Saturday, January 28, 2006

28 January 2006

Afternoon guys...
2day is the eve of Chinese New Year but I felt FUCKed up in this festive season...many things went wrong in life..I start to hate the life of my hideous character..who I am really? Am I the Jeremy I used to be? I doubt my own character...who I am exactly? Yst slept at 3am & woke up at 8am...prepare to go have a haircut....after haircut recieved a call from Jace asking me to meet her at Jurong Point...I agreed! So met her up with Michy & her bf, Shuan...see friend together with a love 1 really envy them...really jealous...on the other hand Jace told me she got a tiff with her mum...very serious until she doesnt want to go back for renuion dinner...I tried to console her but she doesnt heed nvm le...tried my best to make her smile but she also dunwan...What I felt is...yes quarrel with mum ...afterall is ur mum...without her is without u....but I also have problems that I dunnoe how to phrase to u, Jace....u know.....I want to share my problems with u at times but I dont know how to put my problems to u.....not even u Jace, even my best friends I dont know how to put my problems to them....I felt like an idiot waiting for u at Jurong Pt outside liberty supermart...U go away also nvr make a notice to me or even reply my sms when I ask where r u...till Michy called me...I realise that u had gone home...everybody has a character..everybody has a limit...but being able to embrace to 1's weakness, is making life a peaceful 1....not every1 is perfect...ur mum is naggy I agree...but have ur mum did the worst thing to u like mine mum? Remembering, when I was PRI 6...I ran away from home becos I cannot stand her nagging...she made a report to the police post...being handcuffed by Policemen when they found me...all the eyes from passerbys make me felt a great shame...ppl r thinking on mind that ...whats wrong with the kid...he killed some1? stole something? The Police drove me back home...mum beat me using rod infront of them....but the police intervene & suggested she could make a request for me to send in BOYS HOME...am I that bad...? jus becos that very day these nagging crossed my limit....& for once I did something BIG & BRAVE..I ran away from home...if mum were to send me to BOYs HOME ...I believe my future is gone...lucky she did not make the decision. Sister begged her off not to send me to BOYS HOME>....I HATE MUM seriously but nw to think of it...she means gd to me....afterall when she is old...I will grow old...by then she cant take care of me & I have to be on myself...THANK U....I am able to be on my own...but still she nags at time which I cannot take it...but still bear it...this is her character...we cant change her...so let it be....

SO JACE, relax.....believe though it cross ur limit....u can still endure on.....jus treat ur mum as radio singing complains....u have to endure....every kid has this problems nowadays....so jus think positive...she scold u jus dun chap...jus let her sing songz! anyway dont want tok so much on this problem...what I face is more pressurising compared to u.....I am a loner...though I dont know when I can be back myself...but let fate decide.... life SUXS for me...I have problems but I dont how to op up my problems...

Okay, I wish all my fellow chinese comarades, A HAPPY DOGGY CHINESE NEW YR....GONG XI FA CAI, WAN SHI RU YI ....i want go slp...fucked up life...no one knows!