Thursday, April 09, 2009
9 April 2009
Its been such a long time since I blog. Hmm let me recollect my memories and blog it for once. As for now stay tuned to my blog. I will update soon after my exams!Posted by JeReMy at 4/09/2009 11:13:00 PM
Thursday, November 08, 2007
8 November '07
it been a long time since i entry a blog so decided to drop in a post for today. Really time flies, its been a month since my last entry here. Been really busy in camp due to shortage of physical training instructor in my camp. 2 of my seniors had O.R.D from 2years National Service & come next year August my turn! Counting down to my last day of NS too...Firstly is to congratulate them for the regain of freedom. NO MORE regimental duty to Guard the gates & signing extra for doing the wrong thing.Secondly, thank them for throwing all SAI KANG to carry on working (laugh out loud)! Nabei Chao CHEESE PIE ! Anyway all the best for your studies in University, the END! Well, time was really packed everyday the moment I reached camp. No life now, so much work to be completed. Wonder when I can have a good time to sleep & relax my mind. Yah yah, saying so much of work always, MOVE ON Jeremy!
First again, HOW R U MY FRIENDS? contact me leh...ask me out! I am so bored...
Today when out with Dear to Bugis to repay the blessing from Goddness of Mercy (Kwan Yin) for her trip to Shanghai. Met her up at Boon Lay at 12.30pm & make way down. I was so tired because it was a public holiday & finally i could slp late but i woke up from a fright in the morning. I woke up thinking that I was late for my lesson in the morning but I suddenly thought of today Deepavali. What a MISTAKE. Didnt went back to sleep but was like slacking in front of my computer. So in the MRT to bugis I was so quiet with DEAR, I slept! I think she was angry with me for keeping so quiet & sleeping without bothering her. But I am sorry on that, wasnt feeling neither good in mood these few days. Hope you understand. After praying went to eat breakfast + lunch, I got back my jovial mood maybe it was a fake? But i did my best to do shopping with you. Went to sim lim square to buy my rechargeable batteries for my camera flash & later head down to Bugis Junction to shop but seriously it was meaningless. Window Shopping as you say, doesnt suit me.
I am not interested in window shopping, see & see but buy nothing! In the end, legs are numb & tired. HUNGRY + thristy! Haiz..what to do? You want to shop I got to just go as the flow of yours. SO BORING before deciding to head down to Marina Square. Her parents are meeting her for a family dinner. The plan was to accompany her & not join her for dinner, so accompany until ard 7pm before I head back.
At Marina Square did nothing but was again doing window shopping! WHAT A DAY i would say! Looking on the streets that every couple enjoy time with their love but why not me? Boring ? Moody? WHAT the fuck was in me? I just didnt enjoy the day with her today...I FELT pointless in today outing...no direction to go for! She didnt realise I was in a bad day, so was yesterday night. Ate dinner with her at Jurong Point before heading for a movie 'Stardust'...ironically i thought it was some magical action packed movie but to my surprise it was a fairytale movie. Suitable for GIRLS i must say! Quarter through the movie, I was actually dozing off! I was really tired due to the reccee I had done in the afternoon, under the hot sun around Kranji area. We were told to explore a new route for the 28km route march for this batch of BSLC trainees. Their graduation march would be dute in 3weeks so got no time to prepare hence my chief told ask to go explore. Was out for 5hrs & when I got back camp it was like 4.30pm.
Back to office got work to do, so bo bian stay until 6pm. Almost the whole camp was out for half-day as deepavali was tomorrow. I am sorry again that i fell asleep but I couldn't hold my head high up & eyes wide open. After movie send you home but you dont wish to go home early telling me tomorrow is HOLIDAY. I know is HOLIDAY but I am physically & mentally exhausted...yet you say so many things that was so NEGATIVE. Though I just smile & jokingly say it was ok but deep in me I was really disappointed. Anyway it is over!
Today, was even worst, I left you to walk alone most of the time, but I really dont know what else to do...I am getting bored! Ask you want to buy things you dont want. At least you are girls you can shop...U can ask me for opinion in dress or anything but you just dont want to shop. I WANT YOU to dress up, & yah I KNOW I AM DEMANDING IN THIS AREA. Every man wants their love to doll but just your thoughts & principle that you dont wish to doll up. I cant blame you.
Haiz, maybe you just like urself to be so uncondfidently stand out. Whatevere the reason, I tried my best to understand. I am really exhausted always asking you do many things... thats why I wrote my nick in msn that I was tired in life & love. Life is just like a cycle for me. Morning work, evening back home. Next day the same. Meet you...HOPE to see some change so fresh moments, but still the same....HAIZ! You are a young my DEAR. Your age should be so energetic to move & dress....but you dont have this. What is the losing element in it?
Our relationship gets worst each time. I dont know how long more I could hold it...I cant always clap this had myself & make things happen. I am tired in life & please dont make love so BORED! You say CHANGE change, you thought doing this & that for me....but I dont see it...where is it?
Came home, house was empty! You know the life without any1? It was just like coming into a room of darkness. All I know was Poddy waiting for me. In the end, brought him out & play. He is just like me...Being dumped at home. I MISS my family I miss my mum & dad! Where is the noise my mum used to shout for me & the weekends breakfast I used to have on table with Dad. No one understands deep in me, I have this emptiness of warmth I used to have. I am not that independent as you thought. I was a silver spoon boy I agree! but I had tried my best to grow up independently. I hope this lost warmth could be found in our love but seems like the warmth was never there already. I did everything for you even to accompany you for camp in UBIN. I am tired I am tired I am tired & when I breakdown, I care-less in life. I am losing faith I am losing myself. I losing that urge of wanting to see you everyday. I am losing I am losing!
Can you feel it? Each time I held your hands it is becoming weaker? I doubt you know it but you never want to say it out. Or you tried your best to do something to it but it doesnt appeal to me in some ways? I dont know, I am confused... I want to love you as long as I could but I got no more direction to give in more.
If you are reading this, I am sorry! I am losing myself over life & love...
My soul & my spirit is gone for some reason. I need a break time maybe.
Anyway time to sleep, good night folks.
Tell mee what is LOVE? I no longer know what is LOVE ?
Posted by JeReMy at 11/08/2007 10:30:00 PM
Sunday, October 07, 2007
7 Oct '07
Just gotten home from badminton regime at Jurong East Sports Complex., kind of tired? Tire because I sent off my parents to Guangzhou once again. Dad was back 1 week in SG but I hardly had the time to accompany him around. Camp was specially packed heavily with lesson for the 45ht BSLC in SISPEC. Wanted to took leave & accompany Dad but no way out. Anyway got to spend 1 GOOD Saturday with him before seeing them leave my side again.Camp work is stacking high up so I am extra hard working. Reporting back to camp at 5am in the morning & going back home ard 7pm. Almost everyday it was the same life. No fun! Last friday, took part in the Tekong Challenge 2007. Represented SISPEC/HQ SWI team. Total of 6 make up a team. We were running around Tekong to complete 9 Obstacles, e.g Confidence Obstacle Course, Survival Skills, River Crossing, Kayaking & etc. Total distance covered 24km.
Report to Tekong for this fun adventure race. life was so sian on the Friday morning but nevertheless I accomplished my mission of the race. Time take 3hrs 21mins for the whole race. SHAGGED but still got to report back to SISPEC for lesson! SOC! Damn PISSED off but my responsibility. WHAT TO DO? Anyway let me stop bragging about camp work. Never Ending cum FARKED UP place to work in.
Today woke up ard 5am & started driving my parents to T1. Had breakfast with them before departing with them. Seriously, I CRIED again. I AM SOMEHOW FELT ALOST! I can't bear to let them go. Everyday night coming back for MUM's cook food & the chats with DAD! Now it seems the house is quieter again without their presence.
Tears just rolled down my cheeks. Unbearable! Just like Dear when you left me for Shanghai, I too cried but it was luckily not seen by your parents & friends. SO MALU lah...I used to hate mum for sending me to many enrichment classes on Sat & Sun when I was small. The pressure & studies in mind really made me felt like dying.
Today, I understand the effort they made to me. I am equipped with the necessary skills of surving. Seeing they battle through swat & hard earned money....I just hope I can give them good life when they are old. DEAR if you are reading my blog, I hope you treat my Daddy & Mummy like yours! Cannot bully if not I ANGRY worz...Hahaha!
Haiz, I really missed them tonight. I am alone again. No nice home cooked food & the noise my mum would shout for me in house. Everything back to normal once again. I think the next time I see them would be next year during CNY. Another 6months....meanwhile just hope they stay healthy & strong over in guangzhou. May God Bless & Preotect them.
kkk...got to sleep. Waking up ard 4.30am for tomorrow. My friends do take care. Dear Dear 9more days & u'll be back le. Can't wait to hug u & kiss you! Hahaha...counting down! Thats about it for today. Take Care my friends..Good Night!
Posted by JeReMy at 10/07/2007 09:07:00 PM
Sunday, September 30, 2007
30th September '07
Happy Birthday to my elder sister who is celebrating her 31lst bday! Wah OLD le...haha better not let her know this. Anyway Dad is back in Singapore this week to celebrate my elder sister & 2nd sister bday, but in another month time is his own birthday. Went to the airport to pick him up last night & brought him to East Coast Food Center for his favourite CharSiew & Wanton Noodles, so is MUM! Reached home ard 12.30am almost 1.30am when I fell on bed & snore like a PIG!Today morning woke up around 9.30am & was on MSN chatting with laopo! So missed her la...how I wished she is back for now...its been for 2month since she left me for Shanghai for poly attachment.
Yah been a long time since I blog from 14 Sep'07 ...went to Guangzhou to be with dad. Whole holiday trip was really good because I had non-stop eating spree. Dad brought me over guangzhou for their delights. alomst every 3hrs I will be munching food in mouth. Dad's working driver brought me to the streets for clothes & etc. Bought a number of things for myself. Shall photographed what I bought & post it here for you guys to view. Stay tuned! Hahaz!
Anyway this week was pretty busy for me in camp. New posted trainees from tekong, having their BSLC. Planning their lesson & conducting it. Pretty stressed up & now camp is so regimental in someways due to the CPL Dave Yeo who stole the SAR 21 out of camp. Because of this, my camp has stepped up its security level.
Having not enough rest everyday kind of make me feel shag & haggard in life. Yah & beginning of this week, I gonna conduct the 32km route march on Wednesday night at Tekong & taking part in Tekong Challenge on 5Oct. Kind of packed schedule in life. Want to spend some good quality time with dad & mum b4 they fly off this coming 7Oct, Sunday. But it seems no way out for me but to slog my life at SISPEC.
Tonight, was playing with my baby nephews. Then out a sudden 2nd sister was telling me when I am getting married & have kids of my own. I went into a silent state & thought of you, DEAR. How I wish we are now married. Having a family of our own & the kids of our own. The family I was wanted for myself. 1boy 1 daughter would be fine for us. Just cant wait for our marriage to come ture. What are you thinking? Nice to have a family? I dont know your thoughts but you should know my LOVE for you never dies.
Come home fast & be with me again. I love you laopo! Muacks! for now I am going bed....tired. Tmr back to camp for work again. 2more weeks b4 dear dear comes home to me. Miss ya ...maucks!
Posted by JeReMy at 9/30/2007 09:22:00 PM
Friday, September 14, 2007
13 September '07
I had just finished packing my lugguage & also mum's! Phew she got so much things to bring back to Guangzhou...Hahaha! Anyway now is 1am in the morning. In 7hrs time, I would be on the plane & be in the sky to Guangzhou. Kind of looking forward this trip cause the last time I took a plane is 5yrs ago. Japan Airlines to Tokyo. My flight SQ804 boeing 777...cool at 8.15am T2! My friends, do take care when I am not around...gonna miss you all like SIAO! When I am back, promise you a little gift. Hahaha!Yesterday, went back to camp in the morning at 8am book out at 11am. Went to fetch my 2nd brother-in-law from a car garrage. He had an accident this morning. He somehow hurt his finger, which I believe a slight fracture. Swollen...poor thing! ALL DRIVERS BETTER LISTEN OUT, DRIVE CAREFULLY & SPARED ROAD COURTESY to OTHER ROAD USERS!
Got home in the afternoon, lend him my car for his work since I wont be around SG for a week till next week 19 Sep. Fried Mee Goreng for 2nd sister who was here whole day. She was here to let mom look at her grandsons before flying off & coming back next year for Chinese New Year.
Haiz kind of sad again for me! send her over & I got to fly back myself. Poor thing... anyway okie I got to sleep le....pretty late... waking up at 5am to prepare! Elder brother-in-law fetching me & mum for flight. So friends...stay tuned, be back soon! Dont miss me too much!
Dear Dear, I will go for you in shanghai! I TRY MY BEST ! if cannot dont be dishearten cause you know my soul & heart are always with you... I MISS YOU ALOT! MUACKS!
Posted by JeReMy at 9/14/2007 12:58:00 AM
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
12 September '07
just got back from camp & now sitting down to blog again. Yesterday was a long day for me! Woke up at 5am & went back to camp by 6.20am in the morning to withdraw my SAR21 from the arms'room. At 7am it started to rain heavily again! this time is in a SIAN mood cause our shoot is outdoor. No shelter & we got to get into our position on the field. MUDDY came across my mind. It rained till 7.30am & we make our way to range...declare the rifle was cleared to use & conducting brief was given, so was the satefy brief. 8.30am started our warm-up shoot & by 11.30 we started our actual shoot test. My detail was to shoot at 12.45pm. It was boring waiting & got to sit in this hot & humid shelter. DAMN, I was sweating! Feeling sticky & itch as mosquitoes were all over.
Finally it was our slot to shoot. The outcome was BAD! Qaiyum, James & I got only 4 out 16 points. What A SHOCKED for us... Hahaha...went to re-shoot & I passed it but James & Qaiyum went for another re-shoot. Poor thing...by then it was already 2.45pm.
They finally passed the 3rd re-shoot & everyone had cleared the morning shoot test. So we are free to go, we went back to our bunk & I quickly took a chilling shower & a 1hr power nap. We reported back to the range for our night shoot test. Night shoot began at 7.30pm after all the necessary briefs were given.
But it took us 3hrs to finish all details & clean up all the mess for this shoot. Drove home with James & Qaiyum at 10.45pm. SHAG! slept at 12.30am for me...cause I got to bring poddy down for his walk & my bath.
But anyway today went back to camp for just a meeting with my Training Officer. Just 1hrs & everything was done up. Went back to camp at 1pm, meeting at 2pm & book out at 4pm. What a day though! Hahahaz...
this a copy of yesterday 'the NEWPAPER' page 9. Subject: NO SLEEP FOR 28HOURS Well, I was pretty happy when this article was out on newspaper as the photos that were published on the newpaper was taken from me. Hahaha...Was waiting for this article to be published since last week when I was there for the event to shoot photographs. Finally...I got to see before I leave for my China trip to Guangzhou with mum. She is going back to be with dad so I am taking my annual leave to be with them for a period of 1 week. Think I am gonna miss them very soon after I leave from Guangzhou. Haiz... Nevertheless I am still happy all this while. I am waiting for Dear to return back from Shanghai. Many things I want to do with her...waiting for her presence only. 6more weeks to go by... Kk time for time ....go back camp tomorrow for half-day only...be back by afternoon to pack my lugguage. Sleep early my friends & take care...any urgent matters contact me through my hp no. Byebye for now...DINNER ! HUNGRY!
* my respect & tribute to the fallen heros of 9-11. May God Be with them...
Posted by JeReMy at 9/12/2007 07:59:00 PM
Monday, September 10, 2007
10 September '07
Today, was my IMT shoot practice for tomorrow & ATP shooting test for every soldier proficiency in shooting yearly. Went back to camp in the morning with James & Qaiyum & guess what it was raining heavily. Sianz lah, cause better so nice for sleeping! Hahaaz...Took about 30mins for the subject brief & 1hr in waiting for our detail for shoot & just 15mins to clear the pratice...so we went home at 11.30am. Hahaha! Such a boring thing to do but no choice DO IT!
Afternoon got no idea where to head out or find work to do so asked if Qaiyum wanted to do some males' shopping together. He said OK but after reaching home, he felt tired & wanted to rest instead. So eventually the trip was cancelled but MIRACLE do happen! At 4.30pm he called & asked if I still wanted to go out & shop...so I told him YES, but at some nearby shopping like IMM. He said okay & I met him at Boon Lay Bus Interchange.
Took a free shuttle bus at 5.30pm to IMM. Went around shopping with him. Came to eat ice-cream with him & shopping again. Went to esprit & bought a bermudas. He followed me & got 1 himself too. He is so GAY...ahaha! but fun shopping with him. We shopped around at FOX, Adidas & etc. But time is catching up with us. Soon it was 9pm so we decided to head dome.
Yah what's with tomorrow? Tomorrow is my actual shooting proficiency test...got to get my sleep & have gd vision for the shoot. No BooooBoooo shoot for me! GooD NighT my friends again!
this is the bermudas I bought...
so happy got new clothes to wear...
yeah!
